When we are fragile and in need of love it is devastating to be rebuffed by those we hoped would reach out to us and understand. I hope you give yourself time to come to terms with your illness and get support from others that may have the same sickness. Take some time to do some enjoyable and good things for yourself and try to leave the rejection where it belongs...with your mother. Hugs and hope you get help to manage and live with your illness.
Love Chicken little